My heart....

Today I waited after work for Maria....she was participating in her first basketball practice at school.  I had just met with the vice principal and Athletic Director (AD).  We discussed what participation for Maria would look like.....I won't lie, it was hard.....not because the school is against it, they are very open to making it work.....more because of what it means.  Yes, Maria can participate in practices, but not games.  Yes, Maria will learn basketball skills and team work skills, but it isn't quite the same as what her peers will experience.  Honestly, it is a huge step for the school, for other kids like Maria.....but it also points out once again the differences between her and her peers.  Once again I grieve for the things Maria will not experience.  

  On the way home, after a long day....Maria recounted every moment of basketball practice.  I told her she wouldn't be allowed to play in games, but that she can attend games to cheer her teammates and friends on.  She was disappointed, but I also told her this was a huge step and the goal is for her to improve her skills so she can play with the adult wheelchair basketball team during the summer.  She was satisfied, even though I have mixed feelings about it.  I'm thrilled she is being included as much as she is, I wish she could play basketball with her friends in games and represent her school.  For now we have much to celebrate, but still more work to be done.